Blooming Inward
Yes, I’m well aware that typically in May everything is erupting and blooming up and outward, yet as the world gets louder and louder, I feel the more we need to go inward, so that we can fully bloom into the divine self we are.
The outside world is a delightful distractor, one that is filled with exquisite beauty and ugliness. The yin and the yang, the shadow and the light. We must live in this world, but we do get to choose how we live in it. Choosing ourselves is the only answer. We are no good to anyone or anything, if we are not good to ourselves. My life has been a myriad of ways of choosing others, I may change it up and swap it out, but in the end, I am versed in putting far more value on the role others play in my life, than on my own life.
Living from this perspective only erodes our will to live authentically. It casts a shadow on our evolution, our soul, our life. We can not expand, grow or bloom if we don’t water our garden, tend to our roots and relish in our unique beauty. We are exquisite, we are divine, we carry God in us yet we forget, we get lost, we are driven to distraction. For if we really believed we carried God in us, wouldn’t we be rolling out the red-carpet treatment?
How do we get back to home? Back to ourselves? We choose differently. We say no to people and obligations that feel necessary not genuine, and yes that may disappoint or hurt someone. We turn off our devices for a bit, and yes this may cause nervous tension from being untethered from a world of filtered media. We subscribe to eating with intention, not abandon (oh how I slide here when I start to operate for others). We find those tiny quiet moments to feel our body, connect with our body and thank our body. We look at the world around us with a softer gaze, we see life for what it is in this moment, not for what it was, or what it will be. We begin to form a conscious connection to our internal voice, aka our intuition.
Can I trust that inner voice, my gut? Why yes you can, but I will warn you, you will be tested from time to time. Even the other day when I had voiced, I was walking away yet again from selling real estate, a well-meaning friend said but you love money, are you sure you want to give that up? My intuition has been telling me for 3 years to stop selling real estate completely. I have allowed my ego, and my fear to lead me back into it. Now I’m drawing a line in the sand, that I am choosing another path. Do I need to make money, yes, I do. Do I believe in my ability to make money, yes, I do. That is all I need to know at this moment. I believe in myself, I choose myself, the rest of the details will work themselves out as they always have and always will. When we make a choice that is in true alignment for ourselves the universe will show up and walk beside us, and guide us. If I were to listen to my friends well intentioned guidance, I would then be allowing what someone else believes is best for me to guide me, when in fact deep down I know my truth, and I value my truth.
Start trusting who knows best for you! It’s YOU!